One of these days, I'll have to be completely back here. Why? Just because. XPP No particular reason.
I haven't actually been busy. Not too busy. Just too lazy.
Also, there was some kind of a flood of phonecalls and messages from people I haven't seen or heard from for ages. First, Legolas and Kathryn dragged their happy-family idyll to meet me. I didn't get the purpose of this visit, but we had a bit of good time. Then, Christine. That was less nice, especially since Kathryn and her are at daggers drawn with each other, and Legolas and I have been caught in a crossfire when they met. They reminded me of cats spitting at each other over a piece of food)))) Finally, Andy. We have been talking, of course, but he was away in Helsinki and I was too lazy to grab a train and visit him. Not that he dropped by, we had a conversation about how much life sucks and how much more it used to suck. As far as I understood, he's planning some music project back in Finland. He even found some blokes to form a band with. He brought up Carcrash in conversation, and we both started laughing, and I said: "We should have named it Train-wreck. Or Plane-crash. Would have been even more precise." We used to be so lazy and so self-absorbed and so ridiculously, immaturely romantic. I know I wanted a taste of Nirvana-like fame for myself. Blaze bright and burn out quickly, go out with a bang and be remembered for eternity. I'm not so sure what it was that the others wanted. Fame, money, fans? "Do you miss it?" Andy asked. Fuck no! We were horrible! We had horrible poetry (I guess I should have been drinking more often))); we had horrible sound (like a... Nirvana/Placebo love-child rip-off); horrible image (don't even start me on that!); horrible assistance (Christine, I'm looking at you here!); and horrible shit in our heads. I guess we all were exteremely happy to see it go down the drain because mediocrity should be exterminated and dilettantism should be severely punished. To my knowledge, Cass still plays drums unprofessionally and Arnie still plays keyboard. I still play guitar and so does Andy, and there's nothing criminal about it. As long as we keep that away from the world, of course. XDDDD
By the way, it's not an assault of self-criticism; I don't have it. It's a fit of brutal honesty.
And finally: I've read all your entries that I missed. Sorry if I didn't comment on all of them, but I did read them.
Current Mood: |
amused |
Current Music: |
Nirvana. Lake of fire |