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Grey · Havens
It's a Beautiful World Beyond Deception
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Bingo! I finally got ahold of D.A.D. and learnt that our plan is still in progress. We're apparently leaving at the end of October, but no idea where to. Not yet at least. But it's a little something already.
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Placebo. Jackie | |
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Talked to V. Made him understand. Made myself understand. "I want to make sure I'm not some useless baggage to you. Ask me again if you don't change your mind. Ask me tomorrow." Yeah, like I'm proposing or something. Tomorrow came; I asked. "Ask me again tomorrow." Three days, man. You're not a fucking baggage and you know that, so if you fucking love me which I know you do you'll come with me and stop screwing around because I'm not fucking gonna repeat it again. It's a fucking limited-time offer! "Okay." Okay? "Yeah. I'll come." Fucking wanker. "Look who's talking." And I find the baggage thing funny because it reminds me of Kakashi Gaiden. XPP
Now I feel that I can fucking jump off a cliff and survive the fall. I'm fucking in love.
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 crazy |
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myself singing Kitty Litter | |
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I've been having trouble sleeping again. Well, first of all, I located V and it turned out he wasn't going to run out on me, he was just living back home while I was gone 'cause his parents finally decided to sort their shit out away from home to avoid traumatizing their daughter, so V was there looking out for his sister. We had a long talk about everything, 'cause we actually had out own personal shit to sort out - and I suddenly had this Big Shocking Personal Revelation: I don't mind it if he goes with me. This summer in France was amazing. I can't say I missed him or anything, but now that I saw him again I thought: why not? There comes a time of change for everything in life and maybe it's time I changed my selfishly oriented habits. There are a lot of things in my life that I used to consider impossible. Falling in love (hi, Stan!), being in a relationship, not cheating (at least not cheating every day; okay I'm still guilty, but monogamy sucks!!! Shoot me.), living with someone (voluntarily; Kenny doesn't count). Yet so far I've survived all of that. XPP It depends heavily on the financial situation of course (and on V's personal opinion on the matter) but I'm not that opposed to having him by my side anymore. I must be getting old and sentimental. XPP In spite of this decision that should have relieved me, I couldn't sleep for more nights either. So far thriving on coffee and dumb things. Like watching Shippuuden and discussing it with Erin. My Pain/Konan fanboying scared her, I think. XPP I can't help it. They did a good job on Pain, I think, but his eyes look a bit odd. I think they were supposed to be a different colour in the manga. Konan hair looks more lilac than blue, but they fucked up with Karin's hair too, so I'm not surprised. But the voices fit very well. And I like Madara's voice. When he is Tobi his voice annoys me, but he does a good job as Madara. I was going to meet Vadim today, but because of some unexpected problems he is unavailable. So I think I'll just stay home and do nothing. Maybe try and get more sleep. Or watch some stupid anime or movies. The summer was so active that I should still be sleeping.
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good |
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I Monster. Lust for a vampyr | |
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What is it with all the carcrashes, explosions and murders all over the world every day? It's a boring way to end the world. I say: let it rain! Water preferably, not fire and brimstone. And I'll build an Ark! Translation: Alex has read the news. In the light of fanfiction discussions with Erin, I've been thinking that it'd be nice if someone wrote something I'd like to read. *stares expressively at one particular person because he knows no one else will write anything for him* Unfortunately, my demans are next to impossible to satisfy. Me wants: PB:
- A Gretchen-centric fic. Preferably, Michael/Gretchen. IC and all. You catch my drift.
- Michael/Mahone. Naruto:
- Pain/Konan. Could be the Akatsuki times, could be before, while there were still Yahiko and Nagato. Idk.
- Orochimaru-centric something. Pairing, no pairing, gen, slash, het, whatever. IC and all. Could be crack. Could be serious. Equilibrium:
- Jurgen-centric or Jurgen/Preston. The former - anytime, the latter only seems IC post-Prozium, though. Dune:
- Paul/Chani. Any timeframe works.
- Paul and Duncan gen. Could be pre-Arrakis, could be when Duncan was Hayt. You see my dilemma? Finding fics like that is impossible. If you need me, I'll be right there, moping. P.S. LMAO, I'm listening to the same song as last time, it seems!
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Ozzy Osbourne. I just want you | |
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Not a particular fan of "kawaii" anime girls, but the works of this artist are to my liking. Properly cute and eerie. http://www.camilladerrico.com/A group of friends captained by yours truly decided to have a picnic yesterday. The tricky thing is that when we had made up our magnificent minds about it it was sunny and lovely outside, but when we set out to put our plan into action, it started raining. It rained with intervals all day yesterday. That didn't stop us from connecting with the nature, naturally. Who cares if we got a bit wet? XPP My plans for the summer remain obscure. I have planned my holidays over and over again, but some treacherous bits and pieces simply refuse to form the bigger picture. Paris, however, remains the constant element. Well, not strictly Paris, since if I do get there, Renee and I will be traveling quite a lot. Renee has the same long sharp object up his you-know-what as I do that stops him from lazing about in the same place for more than a few days. What bothers me is that I don't quite know when I'm free to go yet. England is the last place I want to visit at the moment. Family business, you know. Ducky wanted to get together, though, but I'm thinking of asking him to come over to France. I'm sure Renee will be thrilled. He seems to have a certain affinity for rich slackers like Ducky. I'd even go as far as stating he studies them. Call it a social experiment. Also, I recall him stating once that "there can never be enough pretty boys around". If anything, Ducky is smoking hot. XPP It may also be quite useful to sort out our own turbulent relationship. I'm still lost as to who is making an enemy out of who in our case.
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Placebo. Julien | |
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I had a dream that I woke up in the city full of madmen. There were soap bubbles everywhere, and a tall shabby bloke I had met in Paris spoke to me about poetry. He said that real poetry is the one that is not written yet, that exists only as a fleeting thought somewhere in the emptiness of your skull. We were drinking coffee in a small coffee-shop from green curved glasses made of ceramics, and the world was warped and shiny and the sky was pink and blue. In short, I want to travel the realm of my dreams more. The real world is here, and the dreams are way too fickle.
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chipper |
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Muse. Showbiz | |
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Been at the doctor's today. My blood is fine, and he made this awesome manic face again: grinned insanely and said: "You'll live... for now." XDDD I hate doctors, but this one almost has the mind of a mad scientist. Guess you should when you work with crazy diseases all the time. Took the tube for fear of getting stuck in a traffic jam in the morning. Another near-death experience. Note to self: don't do that again ever! ( Fear the abugida that is waiting for you under the cut! )
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crazy |
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Sense Field. Futon | |
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The way things are going, I'm almost ready to give up on blogging as it is. Don't get me wrong, I read your stuff, guys, I read it all. I just lack ideas about commenting)))) I'm a little brain-dead. A couple more weeks - and I'm free. What with the diploma defence and the state exams and all, and I'm free to go to Kyoto and be happy. I'll probably stay there the whole summer and maybe drop by London too just to make sure Herb hasn't been brainwashing Jules and the rest of the family with his newfound family values crap. Well... time for the superman!me to jump in and save the day by reminding them that sometimes families do suck and there's nothing you can do about it. As Ennis Del Mar would say, 'if you can't fix it, you just have to stand it'.
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contemplative |
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Athlete. Halflight | |
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It's going to rain, I guess. The sky is greay and smoky, that awesome depressive leaden colour. You take a look at it and you don't wanna live anymore)))
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IWV OST | |
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I had my last exam on Thursday, so now I'm officially free! Hoorah! Of course, I got a B from that bastard, Степаныч, but overall, I'm quite satisfied.
I'm leaving soon, though I'm still not sure where I'll go. I was planning to go home but I've realized that I can't stand any more of my family members. Hopely Uncle Bruce is back to Texas, and Chlo's in NY, but there's always Herbert and... yikes! Okay, just don't want to!
Star
for D.
In blood we flow like a waterfall.
Deliver me away from this painful world.
Never angry, never scared,
Just blank until you come and stir something inside me.
I’m your little vagabond star
Until you call me home.
Thanks to Marilena. She knows what for.
Days pass in blissful re-runs of LOTR, Lost and Last Exile. Music of Nightwish and sleep. Conversations with those who still give a damn about me. What more can I wish? Been to 6 museums since Thursday, very productive. My soul gradually comes alive again.
Snow! I feel like I've taken my head out of the sand!
~ Love has to be reinvented. (C) |
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I've been firmly stuck on this song for some time, can't say why! I saw a video yestrday and it drilled a maze through my head! I walk around just singing it all the time and it's so long I couldn't even find the complete lyrics online for a long time. I'm not really a Faithless fan! Man, I really should begin checking my mail. I found 16 letters that were stored there and I didn't even have time to look through them so I replied the last one and 2 LJ comments. I'm a walking disaster to myself! Meaningless things have their dwelling in my mind firmly. I hate it when it happens. I've been having ridiculous dreams about water all the time. What does it mean when a person dreams about water? One more dream like that and I'm gonna be waking up and rushing over to the bathroom! Hell!  This photo was taken from some web-site (I found it through the Search Engine, I just needed some water pic), so I don't claim it as mine. No offense, okay? Just wanna run to some Carribean sea or smth... Somewhere far away from the cold. I'm a very hot person. Hot-tempred and heat-loving. Sounds weird... I thought I'd just drop by to Stan's place and tell him how I feel about the situation. He wasn't home! Damn it, I laughed my ass off! The jerk wasn't home! Well, his problem, then! 'It's just another day, nothing in my way...' |
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I just feel so cool today, I don't know why. It's a regression from my deepest depression. Remember Gollum? "Pits, pits, pits!" That's about me, bump'n'grind! I'm looking forward to Helloween. Seen Kenny close to Stan's home. So our dearest "Mr Whereabouts Unknown" has finally made an appearance. I didn't feel like talking to him. Leave him be. Wow, an amazing act of kindness for dear ol' moi! Bon Jovi's damn right: There ain't nothin' like the pain called love! Tell-l-l me about it! But I think I might begin to enjoy it from a certain S & M POV! I used to want fame, now I think I want freedom. Herb's still my Daddy in the eyes of the law which means I inherit his money along with Julie and Millie when the Reaper comes. I think I'd settle for Eny's work. He's a journalist, he does a lot of travelling, I've been to Africa with him. Almost forgot: he's coming for Christmas. How am I supposed to tell him Chloe's with Herb again? Okay, I'm being a bit paranoid. I don't have proof yet. Well, I see my life this way: I work where I want and how I want, I'm a romantic vagabond, I don't have attachments, I see exotic places... Dreams, dreams, dreams... |
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